I’ve been wearing lots of black and white lately. I seem to be partial to black and white dresses, and because of that’s there’s 4 dresses in my wardrobe with that colour combination. I used to always think that fat girls couldn’t wear white, because it made you look bigger and that would be horrible. When I quit school at 16 i wore a baby pink top and skirt because white was out of the question. Baby pink is NOT my colour! These days I mostly think I can’t wear white because I’m messy and spill things on my clothes. Or sit in dirty things. So white combined with other colours work much better.

This dress is one of my favourites. It fits me well, it’s lined, the fabric is soft and comfortable, it shows just about enough cleavage (lots, but without showing my bra or being too revealing) and the pattern on it is lovely.

• Dress - Evans via Ebay, size 22 UK
• Bolero - Tesco, size 22 UK
• Shoes - thrifted
• Necklace - thrifted

I’m wearing it today to go to a bunch of flea markets. Later I’ll put on an apron and do some gardening in the sun. Or I might switch to my tankini and get some sun on my legs and breasts.

I want this! This top is all the ugly flowery tops I’ve ever hated, combined in to one. And I want it. In my (deluded?) mind I could pull it off. I could wear this flowery top and look good. Right??

I was always scared of wearing colours and patterns as a fat child and teen. I was so sure that it would make me look fat (and fat, as we all know, apparently equals ugly). So I wore black, black black black….. black. I’m making up for it now, wearing ridiculous combinations and garish colours. This is how I see it; I’m fat, and no matter what I wear I will still look fat. Wearing black won’t make me magically look 40 pound thinner and it certainly won’t make me any cheerier or friendlier.

Seriously, flowery tops! I’m not buying it, I have no money at all, plus I’m partial to sales anyway. But.. yeah flowery would be great.